Dear Mom,
I’m not always sure that I can do this right, truth be told. In my hardest days, I wonder too much if I’m making the right choices for both of these girls.
You believe in me.
Moments into our new reality, you were there, rooting for Tessa and us and the choices that we would make. When the nurses told me that you had come, thinking that you would just be bringing John a sandwich and hunkering down to wait for Grandbaby #4, there was not a single hesitation in my mind about letting you into our odd little vortex right from the beginning.
When we asked you if we could move in with you and Dad so that we could provide a great educational experience for our children, you didn’t bat an eye. You both took us in, with all of our mess and chaos and annoying habits. You care for my girls, help Tessa with her therapies, and love fiercely on Ellie so that she never feels forgotten.
You learn with us and we are so thankful for that. So many families don’t have the support that we have. You are teaching others how to see our child as we see her, as just one of the members of the goofy little grandbaby clan. You read books, you attend seminars and watch webinars. You’re giving up an entire Saturday to attend a conference so that you, along with us, can help us provide Tessa with all that she needs to live her dreams.
Much earlier this year, your health concern rocked me. My mind went wild, as all of ours did, and for days and days, I would spend my commute fighting back tears of worry that I would have to face all of the things, good and bad, without you. I am so very thankful that you are here and that all is well. I am thankful that my little ones have lots more chances for sleepovers and Mimi and Ellie Days and baking cookies and reading books… that they will get to feel all of the love that I have felt as your daughter for so many years.
I love you!!
Mags
PS – Good Lord, will there be a letter this month that I can get through without crying??? I’m not off to such a good start!
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Yo soy La Lay 
There are so many things I want to say to you Maggie. Most importantly, Thank you for these beautiful words. Yes, you brought me to tears too. I knew the day you were born that God had blessed me with a child for whom He had great plans.
I love Tessa with all my heart and wonder at her spirit every day. I thank you and John for trusting me to care for her. I believe that God has great plans for this little dynamo. And, once again, I feel blessed to be a part of His plan.
I love you my daughter! And I love my sweet Tessa too!